In my dreams
I am alone and underwater
I can swim for hours without coming up
I have never been happier.
I think of the rain
More than I think of people.
Sometimes I sit in air conditioned rooms
And see the sky break out into purple and blue.
When was it that I last danced
In the clear, soft-grass puddles in my backyard
As the rain fell hard enough
To drown everything it touched?
I can see the mango tree shining,
Dogs barking in the distance
And the water rising in grey whirls.
One day the water will come to me
And I will wait with open arms
As it takes me to its womb.
I’d almost drowned when I was a child.
If my life is to end,
Let water take it, dear God.